I'm in a situation where I may have a better job offer, but I feel like if I take it, I'd be both missing out on getting to be part of a cool organization (my current job with a new nonprofit organization) with potential and pulling the rug out from under my boss, clients, and co-workers. At the same time, it seems foolish to turn down a job that offers that when I'm perpetually worried about being able to pay my rent with what I'm bringing in.
I've quit many, many jobs over the years, yet the process is still agonizing, every time. I really hate feeling like I'm letting people down, especially if my managers are nice, like me on a personal level, and have invested time and energy into training me. I started volunteering my time with the organization I work for last year; I started working there as an employee a few months ago. It's a wonderful organization and the people involved are wonderful people. That said...I've quit two unrelated jobs in order to clear my schedule for this job, and then had clients back out for various reasons (I currently only get about 12-20 paid hours per week). My boss has my back and wants me to have more work, but there's only so much he can do. I do believe we will get more clients eventually, but I've become frustrated with the waiting, simply because I can't afford it without financial assistance from my family. I appreciate my folks both giving and loaning me "just until the job gets going" money, but I feel like it's irresponsible for me to continue living off them when I could be working full time and be responsible for my own bills and living expenses.
I've started applying for jobs (and hiding how uncomfortable I feel about leaving my current one) and...just had an excellent interview today, where they, seemingly, are waiting on me to make a final decision. Full time work, weekends off, better pay, benefits, and it sounds like it fits my interests and skill set better. I feel like if I don't take it (assuming it is a definite thing; I wouldn't leave my current job without an offer in hand), I'll start to resent my current job for "getting in the way" of an opportunity. It seems foolish to turn down opportunities for a full time career-type job out of a combination of loyalty and sunk cost fallacy, right? Again, I've talked to my endlessly patient and understanding boss about my desire for regular pay and regular work hours, but not that I've applied for other jobs.
I could suddenly get enough work next week at my current job (clients come and go constantly), but there's no guarantee, whereas if I take this other job, I'll make the same amount of money each pay period and actually be able to predict what my income will be, which, honestly, would be great for my mental health. Plus...I suspect I might actually like the job better, even if I don't like the organization as much. Thoughts on how to broach the subject with my boss gracefully, and leave without feeling like a monster? |
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