TL;DR: I desperately need to take FMLA leave with my job sooner rather than later because I'm in a very, very bad emotional state. Kaiser is...unhelpful. What do?
I am at the very end of my rope with an extremely stressful job and a shitty, unsympathetic boss, plus other intense emotional turmoil that is catching up with me. Quite frankly, I feel like I'm losing my fucking mind. My memory is shot, I can't eat or sleep, and I'm hyper-vigilant and reactive to everything, my resting heart rate is through the roof.
It occurs to me to quit outright. However, I would rather just...exist and deflate for a few weeks, even if it's unpaid, and make a more graceful exit when I'm not about to lose it. I have nearly exhausted my sick and vacation time to try to get my shit together.
To that end, I absolutely need to go on FMLA leave. I had an intake appointment with a LCSW this morning with Kaiser, who agrees that I'm a wreck, but apparently is not authorized to sign off on work leave, so they referred me to a psychiatrist.
The earliest I can see the psych is in June. I'm freaking out because I don't think I can keep working in the state that I'm in until then. As a backup, I have another appointment with a rando physician (not my PCP, who is also booked for the next month) on Monday.
So is there anything else I can do? What are, or should be, my next steps? Kaiser was already overwhelming and labyrinthine when I could function - this just feels so impossible now. |
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