For 26 years, after a major depression/anxiety episode in college, Trazodone has been my rock when it comes to getting sleep. And then, last week, for no discernible reason and pretty much overnight, it stopped working.
I've been a fire/medical first responder since 1998: through years of crazy work schedules; both parents getting cancer; losing friends and coworkers to accidents, illness and suicide; plenty of challenging and stressful events at work even BEFORE COVID, etc, etc., I could always count on getting solid sleep. This was a good thing, as any hint of insomnia scares the hell out of me because of said depression/anxiety episode back in 1995-96. (I've also been doing well on Effexor for over a decade, and pray it doesn't decide to tank on me as well.) The upshot is, whatever stress I felt last week, it was not out of the ordinary.
Predictably, this has caused the bottom to drop out from my world. Ridiculous, I know, but at the slightest whiff of insomnia, the ghosts of my college episode come out to play. Cue the anxiety, rumination and deep fear that this is the end of my career and everything I hold dear: independence, reliability, competence in my work, the ability to be of use to others. In just a few days I've become almost paralyzed with this stupid, unnecessary but inexorable distress. I desperately need to nip it in the bud, NOW. And the interwebs have been next to useless - can't find any articles from reliable sources or peer-reviewed literature on this happening, at all.
So the question, for anyone experienced with Trazodone, either on the prescribing or receiving end, has this ever happened to you? Are there any other sleep-aid drugs out there with the same durable, non-addictive, low-side-effect, no-tolerance-buildup profile? Pretty sure I'll have to be on some sort of sleep medication for the rest of my life.
Thanks in advance. |
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