The Germans probably have a word for this. It's a sunny Friday afternoon and I have a few hours of work left. Things are fine and things are sad. There's fun plans in the near future but the awful times of the near past still feel very vivid. Everyone I love is "fine" and nobody I love is fine. The world is coming back but I miss everyone and everything all the time, anyway. What songs should I listen to for the rest of the day?