The short version is, my brain is getting overwhelmed by trying to deal with Covid stuff (horrific second wave in India), work stuff (difficult, sexist, contradictory, rage-inducing boss, utter lack of boundaries regarding working hours, consistently zero acknowledgement of the mental toll of the pandemic), dealing with a bunch of logistical issues regarding family relocation that cannot be put off, missing the person I started dating terribly (in different cities) with no clear visibility on when I might see them again, and renewed grief that life is just passing by in this mess of coping and loss and panic. The long version is too long.
I need to park stuff, especially the covid and work/boss stuff, so I can deal with as much as I can at one time. I need to find joy, but I'd settle for coping better. Rage journal? Deep breathing? Enforcing work-life boundaries (how does one even DO that as an anxious people pleaser?)? Take an 18 hour nap? Something has to change, otherwise I won't stay functional. I have to stay functional. Hope me.
Linking back to previous covid/managing wfh questions/articles would also be helpful, thank you.
(Why yes, I do have anxiety issues, why do you ask? I plan to bring up this stuff with my therapist but they are also unwell right now, sigh) |
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