Help me get through this month. Grad school and family covid special

Post date: 2021-04-14 06:29:26

I am in a terminal MA programme and I have my last bunch of essays due early May before the dissertation which I will write over the summer. I don't want to give too many details away because I know people on here but essentially Covid struck my family this week. I have a grandparent with underlying health issues in hospital, potentially another grandparent affected, symptomatic siblings and parent. I live two continents away and haven't been back since 2019 (thank you Covid). I cannot change essay deadlines (I checked) -- I'd have to graduate a year later if I do so. I cannot think at the moment, please help me get through these testing weeks.

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I feel like I could potentially lose at least one grandparent because of their health issues and the thought of this makes me want to get into bed and never leave it. I feel so helpless. I have a really tiny family and my grandparents are my world. Graduating later is an option but it is also a really frustrating one because I have worked hard through my MA and have done well and to lose an entire year will affect my plans for a PhD.

I tried to write today but I keep alternating between crying and staring into space. Not sure what to do. Maybe I am overreacting and need to get my act together, I don't know.

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