I'm reaching out because I am at a straws end and feel so overwhelmed.
I recently moved AND started a 2nd full time job. All has been going relatively well—the move was smooth. It has, however, been very overwhelming juggling both jobs and moving, all at the same time.
Tonight, I was at the grocery store, and my iPhone was unexpectedly stolen. How it happened was so odd and surreal—I had it in my hands and had it under the ice-cream container, then once I reached self-checkout, noticed it was missing. Searched, searched, searched everywhere in the store. A nice employee helped me. We didn't find it. I was in shock and kind of panicky. I'm Deaf and rely on my iPhone heavily as a "lifeline" of communication. Fortunately, I had theft/loss coverage on my iPhone, so getting a replacement shouldn't be a problem. It was really hard and traumatizing given my fears of being abandoned in the middle of nowhere, without communication, etc. I was able to find a way to communicate (paper and pen, how analog!). I thought the iPhone was just lost somewhere in the store, so went home, located it via "Find My" and alas, the iPhone moved to a different location away from the store and was changed to "low power mode", so I knew most likely it was lifted.
Here are my questions.
1) How could this have happened? I would have felt it in my hands being snatched, or even my pocket. I'm very careful and conscious (even though tonight I was admittedly distracted, juggling stuff in my hands, but still).
2) The very nice employee handed me a wad of cash to help me get home via the Metro system even though I tried to refuse and pointed to my pocket to indicate that I had money to get me home. Should I pay that money back to her? I feel really bad about that.
3) I have two jobs, as mentioned above. The full-time primary job is full-time, all day, I'm new, and on a 1-2 years probation. I already took a day off last week to move, so I'm really afraid calling out again in such a short time span wouldn't be a good look, but I really feel I need some self care time, especially after how traumatizing this was.
4) Does it seem like my iPhone was really stolen? I'm still having a hard time wrapping my head around it. It does seem to make logical sense, given they didn't turn in the iPhone to the store manager/security, or even hand it back to me (if I had dropped it unknowingly), is in a different location away from the store, AND was put in low-power mode, but still... a grocery store should be a safe place to be at. Then again, my city has been having more reports of crime lately, probably a factor of COVID and whatnot.
5) I recognize this about myself, I tend to have a bad habit of biting off more than what I can chew. I move at a fast speed, I like to be in control, and I do whatever it takes to make things happen, but consequentially I often am doing a million things at one time, or handling/juggling multiple problems, leading to crashes/burnout. This is what is happening now (new job and new move, and juggling two jobs at a time). How would you recommend I stop this and slow down, be more paced out?
I know this Ask was all over the place (like I am currently). My therapist is still on pregnancy leave, but I'm going to try and find out about getting a referral. I just feel so spent and drained, especially after this awful incident. It may just be an iPhone, but it was my lifeline, especially as a Deaf person. (I have doctor's handwriting and my hands are shaky so it's hard to handwrite) Plus moving, new job... it's too much for me right now.
I appreciate you. |
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