Work life needs a reboot

Post date: 2020-09-27 09:15:36

I have been constantly, repetitively, making dumb mistakes at work, ranging from merely silly to potentially serious. Quite often, I am able to catch those mistakes afterwards, but that's useless. I am definitely burned out, but for various reasons exiting current team is not possible right now. These mistakes cannot keep happening. What do I do?! More below the fold.

For instance, yesterday I sent a mail to a teammate asking if our superior had signed off on a response sent to a different team. Only hitch? I hit reply all, including said superior as well as the team the response had been sent to . The day before, I made an addition error in a proposal.
I am currently on leave and shouldn't even be working. But wfh has destroyed all those work-life balance theories and I find myself twitchy about checking work mail every other hour. I have a really, really difficult superior and I'm constantly worried about being hung out to dry for my errors (they don't particularly care about the difficult circumstances of the current year and have been pushing very very hard for a lot of extra work. In the middle of a pandemic that has upended our lives.) Ironically, because I am terrified of them, it makes it that much harder to admit to the errors and fix them.
I should also mention that I have GAD and have a therapist, but sessions have been spotty because of various issues. This entire year has been a giant trigger for my anxiety issues, and work has been the biggest trigger of them all.
Because reasons, I reiterate that I cannot ask for a change of team till end of this year. But I cannot keep turning in error ridden work like I am doing now. Work anxiety has colonized large parts of my brain and yet it feels like all it has done is impact my work negatively. What do I do to make it better? I need a reboot. I don't know how to do it. Please help! Thank you.

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